Dreaming of a different day...

So a few months ago I saw in the newspaper an add looking for an HVAC tech. to live full time on Marthas Vineyard. They'd provide moving assistance and competitive pay. Of course this wouldn't be a job I'D take, but Chris. So I showed him the add, half joking, half hoping that we could just drop everything and make a run for it. Forget that we have to be in our house for at least two more years, forget the bills we already can't pay! Or the fact that we have two dogs, cats, and soon to be two children. My mind was spinning!
Ever since my sister and I started reading Alice Hoffman books as kids, you know "Illumination Night", and having vacationed there with family growing up, I've had it in my head that I'd someday own a house on the island where I could walk my children to the beach hand in hand. We'd wake up early in the morning and have breakfast on our farmers porch, and then walk looking for shells. In winter when the island is iced over and empty we'd live huddled together drinking warm hot chocolate and running the wood stove, waiting for Papa to come home safe from his work, because he'd be the most saught after heating tech on the island. We'd be full timers! And then of course we'd look down upon all the summer vacationers and millionares that would ferry over from the mainland in the summer and shrug them away as they left in late August.

Yes, but alas, we put the ad away and we're still stuck here in ole' Goffstown. At least we have the pond...technically waterfront property, right? :)

Catching Up - Week 20

This week the baby is really growing. As I nurse Evie at night and she is lying across my stomach, I can really feel strong kicks. Sometimes I can see them. I am more and more anxious each day on how Evie will deal with a sibling. She is considered a "high need baby" not because of her temperament but because she is very "attached." For those that don't know I am planning on tandem nursing the two girls. This is because I do not feasibly see Evie weaning by the time the new baby is here. Evie still nurses to sleep for bother her naps and at bedtime. It was only until she was 7 months old that she would not sleep on me and I could finally put her *next to me. *Yes she is still sleeping next to me in bed at night. Some agree with cosleeping, but most not. I have gotten a lot of support from the Attachment Parenting Group that I attend in this area. Many Moms I have met go through the same thing. I am confident that by giving Evie the love and attention she needs at this precious time in her life, she will grow to be a strong and caring girl. If that means being close with her for most of her infancy and toddlerhood, than that is fine with me. She is just going to have to share me come this December/January.

Anyway, this pregnancy has been almost exactly the same as with Evelyn. Minus the stomach bug I had with her around 16 weeks. I had the same morning sickness/nausea around 8-12 weeks and thankfully that has gone. I'm starting to get the same heartburn I had with her also. I am however, showing more than I was at this stage with Evie. I'd say I look like I did when I was about 26 weeks. But, not uncomfortable yet. I'll try to load some recent belly pics soon!